Deep end

I eat hardship for breakfast and then stress for dinner,

Nothing good happens whether you're a saint or sinner.

I used to find any form of inspiration

But nowadays my energy is beyond expiration.

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My life only gets harder everyday

I'm not encouraged by what other people say.

They don't know anything, they lack so much wisdom

They even live lives far from God's Kingdom.

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I want to be away from all idiocy and responsibility.

I just want to indulge in everything that makes me happy.

Instead I'm around people and situations that make me sad or mad.

My mind corrupts and I think of doing evil and bad.

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Daily, I finish my responsibilities in a hurry

Because I despise wasting my precious time and money

Especially on things that really won't benefit my happiness.

Really I know, life resulted my deep selfishness.

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Sometimes I think it's such a shame, what I've become.

It's not so different to what I would classify as dumb.

Everyday. I always thought that I would be better off dead.

But God keeps saving me from going to the deep end.

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Copyright Star Ashley Cruz

Dec. 24 2017